My cake fell apart.

Uhm, damn. I was baking a cake for our team party this weekend, to be cut up to look like a roller skate. I swear it had been cooling long enough but I underestimated this heat and when I turned it over it fell out. But only half of it. I think part of the problem could also be that I used a tiny too much liquid.

This isn't too bad, I have extra OJ and chocolate chips so all I need is another box (it is a Giada de Laurentiis recipe - if a mix is good enough for her it is good enough for anyone!), I just don't have a lot of time to get it done. We will probably be leaving Jay's between 1 and 1:30 on Saturday, two parties that day. The team party is the second.

It also sucks because it gave me a really good excuse to eat a lot of broken cake.

I will let it cool some more, then put it in a bowl. We are having his family over on Sunday, I will mix it up with some pudding and strawberries and make something yummy. Totally by accident.

God damnit all I wanted to do, got out of practice early, was play the Sims because it's been on my mind like crazy.

Oh right now I remember, IT WON'T FUCKING LOAD. I watch the process start up in the task manager, it gets to about 30K and just drops off. It stops. I remember this had been a problem and I've uninstalled/reinstalled a zillion times and it just starts happening again. I hope it's just not enough hard drive space and RAM for all my downloads...which is vaguely possible? Anyway...I just wanted to boot it up and play a teeny tiny bit...not go through the install crap..so I guess it's off to bed.

DAMNIT I WANT THAT NEW COMPUTER NOW, NOT NEXT TAX RETURN!

So I think selling bags of all green M&Ms is wicked cute for Valentine's Day...but man did I eat way too many M&Ms today.

And nope, didn't really get horny. Damn.

is on a Sunday! I will totally be wearing my nametag to roller derby practice and taking pictures of myself there. How awesome would it be to get featured!

No, I'm only a little pissed off. I started antibiotics for something I didn't even know I had because I had absolutely no symptoms, NONE, and have been nauseous ever since. Didn't pay it much mind but it started last night - just felt a little off falling asleep. Woke up feeling horrible but once I finally got around to breakfast, that helped...for about an hour, hour and a half. By 2:30 it was bad enough that I was spending more time sitting in the bathroom waiting to see if I was going to vomit than I was spending working, so I finally left work around 3. I fell asleep on the couch...for like twenty minutes but felt pretty good when I first woke up. Now I feel just as bad as before.

I am on the antibiotics until Friday morning. If I am still nauseous on Wednesday and can't skate, I will be so pissed because we do NOT have very many practices between then and the next bout. Last Monday and Wednesday's practices were total JOKES, no more than 7 people there each night and didn't last more than an hour. Saturday's team practice was cancelled and since practices have been so lame I skipped Sunday (it was really nice to sleep in after going to a MNRG bout). Tonight is league meeting and if it doesn't fill up the full two hours, I can't stay after to skate anyway because I feel like crap. I have SO MUCH I want to work on, so many things I want to try, new tactics, new ways of looking at the pack, and I really want to throw my heart into it so I look amazing because I HAVE to jam in January. I didn't shine enough at the last bout, I am worried they'll decide one of the other rookies they have been looking at as potential jammers is ready and it will cut my jam time way down.

MNRG was great. It's awesome to watch all stars vs all stars - the pack was SO FAST! When you are only skating your top players, they are all in amazing shape and the game moves so quickly.

Anyway. I want to lie back down.

I have been violated, and stabbed. Gyn appt today, and got the first Gardasil shot. I am basically old enough that it's probably worthless, but young enough that it's a "why not?". So, whatever. I thought, based on previous doctorly experiences, they'd have automatically set up my next appointment for me, but apparently they're lame. I saw the doctor I wanted to see but was not impressed, I guess next year I'll try someone new again. At this rate I will never have an actual doctor. We also got the lowdown on our benefit plan changes at work yesterday. Our rates aren't going up too badly because the company is picking up most of the tab for BCBS' ridiculous 49% hike, but still - that $7 less of take-home pay (HR estimate) does make a big difference to me.

I also set aside money for flex spending, which will affect my take-home pay but hopefully will all even out. I just GOT new glasses, so hopefully I still have enough ways to spend what I set aside. You can pay for a lot with a flex spending account so I think it will, even if I end up stocking up on band-aids at the end of the year to use it up!

I worked from home this morning and yes I did work! The visit didn't take nearly as long as I'd thought it might so I am not heading to work quite yet, but I will around 2. I will stop at Starbuck's and the Post Office...I wasn't planning to be at the office until 3 and since we have to submit our time cards by 12, I am not going in TOO early! I still have money on a Starbuck's gift card I got LAST year, and I need two or three International Priority Flat Rate envelopes from USPS.

Tomorrow night is MNRG, two different all-star team line-ups are playing other traveling teams. That should be fun.

Last weekend was NSRG and the Banger Sisters won! We beat the Deltas, 93-84. I didn't score very many points this time and am disappointed by that. I did well strategically, so that's okay. I have a lot of things in mind that I want to work on, tho.

Meh, not much else.

I have a god awful headache. I wonder if it's lack of caffeine? But during the week I only drink one cup of coffee a day; yeah I drink too much diet coke on the weekends but it's not like I drink that much caffeine every day.

Maybe it's the excessive eating; I'm pretty sure that's why I seem to have a canker sore on my tongue. I am just not cut out to be alone, I eat too much! Breakfast, I just couldn't stop...my oatmeal and toast...then my banana and a slice of toast with PB...and then a bowl of cereal! At least it was a small bowl and good cereal, Kashi GoLean. Had an apple after practice, a quesadilla with chicken and peppers for lunch...and corn...and popcorn...and pizza rolls but at least they were light! and finished some little Gerber snacky bites (the puffs...they are good in trail mix)...and then I was all, fuck it I'll just have dinner...and it wasn't even four o'clock! I was too full but didn't stop.

Well, I finally got a little energy, I did some exercising. Not much. Did not in any way negate the excessive eating!

I also cleaned my oven - god knows when it was last cleaned, first time I did it. I've had the cleaner forever and just...never sprayed it. So I did that, and the cookies are in the fridge - probably chilled enough to roll out. The oven's been preheating for like an hour, so I think I'll go take care of those!

p.s. all this food made me farty.

It's all about the clothes right now. I have this ADORABLE outfit for my photo shoot, a not-too-naughty Santa outfit (it's just a short red halter dress, looks like velvet, with white fuzzy trim; and I got the BEST socks at Target - red and white striped knee highs with white fuzzy trim at the top!), and I've been agonizing over shoes, trying to find red - and preferably closed-toe, because, well, socks. I was about to suck it up and order some $20 pumps from Payless but thank goodness tried on some shoes here first and decided - hell, Santa wears black boots, why can't I just wear black pumps? I have the perfect style. So, there. Red might look better but damnit, Santa wears black! Now I just need to get some ribbon and make a bow on a safety pin - the dress is just a little too big, and it makes me look wider than I am. Want to cinch it in a bit by pinning the back, and make it look intentional and decorative with a bow.

Also tried on the naughtier Santa outfit, probably won't end up using it for the photos because the only top I have that works is a sparkly tank and that isn't very pin-up-y, and I don't think I'll feel like doing skirt and bra only. Also, don't have a bra the right color - thought white would work, but it really does need the matching pink bra.

One more outfit kicked out, my Thanksgiving outfit! I have been stressed because I brought the skirt I want to wear to TurnStyle. Now, it is too big, and actually still on the rack there so I tried it on tonight - yes, too big, and not quite right anyway. I had conceded to denim but wasn't happy about it until trying everything on - looks so cute and snow-bunny! Cream sparkly turtleneck with cream knee highs, tan suede-y boots with a little sheepy fuzz, and a denim skirt - perfection.

And more clothes! Today I added trim to my Bangers uniform. Just D-ring tape up the sides, then laced them. I would love to cut the hell out of the neckline and show some skin, but I really hesitate to potentially ruin the shirt. At least if I leave it, I am still matching my team (who for the most part, don't seem keen on modifying. Pippi tied hers up at the last bout but that was a borrowed shirt so maybe it was just too big).

Tomorrow I have to sew the PBR shirt from MNRG. Pippi lent me her T-shirt book and I'd like to return it Monday. I'm going to photocopy or scan some of the pages, tho - there are instructions for a t-shirt blanket which I've been thinking of, and a neat skirt. I could do an all-camp shirts blanket, probably - because even though I don't have enough shirts for fronts, I can use the backs with the signatures for more panels. I might make a skirt with all my Star Wars tees - not enough for a blanket there, and it would be the dorkiest kind of cool! So anyway, want to copy those instructions, and maybe some others.

Yeah, that's my weekend. Team practice this morning, came home and ate too much for lunch, but at least I didn't snack all afternoon. Sat on my butt and finally sewed the uniform. Ran up to TurnStyle. Spent a lot of time on the internet. Did not do any laundry or really any organizing/cleaning. I might feel pressured enough to do stuff tomorrow. Morning is league practice, then Fundraising committee meeting for I guess an hour, at least (I am not even sure I want to be on the Fundraising committee!). I have to bake and frost sugar cookies to bring to the blood drive on Tuesday (roller skates in team colors). Should really wash my sheets, I can probably make the clothes last until I'm at Jay's (although I might be bringing TWO bags of laundry! I think I am going to be bringing a LOT of baggage...I will be there Wed. night until Sun. night! Three practices in that time. I will need a lot of clothing!). Should start packing - week will be busy! Monday night practice; Tuesday night blood drive - Wednesday I don't come home. ACK!

Tomorrow morning is going to suck, 7 AM to get up for the 9 AM practice. Time for bed!

Yikes! Well, I picked up a check for just over $30 at TurnStyle tonight. That is a big relief; I just chucked out almost $250 on skate stuff (two new sets of wheels, two new pairs of laces, an xmas present for Jay, and a bearing pusher/puller) and was wondering how I was going to avoid using credit to buy some food for this weekend. Jay is going hunting, I am on my own! =O hehe. It's perfect timing, I will be able to devote as much time as I need/want to "editing" my team uniform.

I picked up mini loaf pans at Target last night; going to bake MINI cranberry breads for my team. No effing way was I baking that many full size loaves. I'll also bake a full-size to bring to Thanksgiving. This weekend I'm baking sugar cookies - I will use my roller skate cookie cutter! And frost them in all the different team colors. That's for the blood drive on Tuesday. I am not ready to say "YES" I will give blood - last time I got stuck, they had to try so many times to find a vein, I got light-headed and close to passing out. But, to show my support and get some damn volunteer hours, I'm going to show up anyway and at least give cookies to the girls who are donating.

Also got a jump rope. I guess from now on, Monday nights will be jammer clinic. So far, not impressed - the girls who didn't do the clinic got more of a work-out! The jumping rope is good, tho.

Last weekend was an MNRG bout, Rockits vs Duke City and Bombshells vs Denver. The Rockits' heart just wasn't in it - really slow, unenthusiastic start that kind of picked up but it was still disappointing to see how some people just weren't trying. The Bombshells were enthusiastic but unfortunately it was the dirtiest game I have ever seen.

Uhm, did I even mention that I tried out for the traveling team last week? Yup, I am now on the interleague team! I guess we might be bouting against Oklahoma City (home game in January) first. Now I'm nervous and will have to work my ass off - the January bout is the one my family might becoming to see. I better be one of the 14 (out of a total of 17) girls who get to skate it! I was less nervous about making the cut when it was just my time - but the stakes got a little bit higher.

Lotta practice this week, thank goodness tonight's team practice was canceled. Last week I skated Mon, Wed, Thurs, Sat, Sun - plus yesterday, tomorrow, and Sat and Sun again. Tonight would maybe have been a bit much! I gotta get out to this Lady America gym next weekend. It's up by Jay's, it's owned by a league girl's parents and they will give us a discount. I'd like to sign up if they have cardio classes at good times, I'm thinking Thursday early evening so I can go, work out, and be at Jay's in time for Earl; and then also if they had one any time on Saturday. If I do 2x a week for 8x a month I guess BCBS would shell out $20 a month for it! So that would be great, but I didn't get up there this weekend. Sat after practice I ran some small errands (Target, gas), but Sunday I did a mall run (gotta hit Hot Topic when they're running the additional 50% off clearance sale) and groceries. I am just too pooped after practice to do more than the minimum. Hell, I wouldn't even have showered on Sunday if Jamie didn't tell me I stank.

Anyway! GOTTA GO BED.

My DVD Recorder is insane and I didn't get Earl or the Office recorded last night.

And they're no longer on iTunes.

And the Amazon.com option? TOTALLY SUCKS.

FUCKING BOO TO YOU NBC FOR TAKING YOUR SHOWS OFF ITUNES. DUMBEST, SHITTIEST MOVE EVER.

I have so much consumer rage about this, and the feeling that I can't really do anything about it.